Time past

24/3/2014    Rainy day

In this rainy day, listen to the song you sang for me before, I remember that smile that warm the first time we travel together, the first time we chat, we talk to each other. That's was a very good memories, I wonder did you recall those memories before?? Sometime I still will pass by your profile to see that recently how was you? I have no more guts to send you a greeting, this was the second time I wish to send you a greeting , but I didn't ! why should I? You not worth to get my greeting anymore. I hate you deeply, I never forgot how you treat me after break up! When you know that I'm going overseas, I wish to get a greeting from you (as a friend) but you never... ( past of me may feel disappointed on you, but now.. no more)

Someone say I still love you, but truely from my deep heart, you the one that suit my demand and the people that I searching for.. So that's why when you say broke up I hardly to let go? I'm suffering, crying to beg you back. How retarded I am to do such stupid thing to a person that don't appreciate my good? my effort?

I can live without you, I HATE SMOKER! I HATE YOUR STUPID IDIOT BRAINLESS LOW STANDARD FRIENDS! I HATE YOUR HEREDITY TEMPER!! 

Thanks for the hurts and thanks for letting me go, I happy that the end I don't need to pay my whole life with you! I do happy after you much people want to be couple with me, they treat me better than you, even knowledge is better than you

Finally my dreams come true. I able to went overseas for my study, the most important thing that I don't need to stay the standard that you were. 

BYE,BYE... PLEASE DISAPPEAR ^^

My first journey

1 March 2014

My second time, flying alone to overseas (Australia).  This fly will be long-term, decide to leave Malaysia, because of some reason, never think that I have that encourage to fly oversea for study.

I'm tiring of being your maid, tiring to be your daughter, I give up everything in Malaysia is to hide from you.

I try hardest to be independence, to prove you everything that I can done by myself, to do whenever both of you want me to do, at the end what I get? I doesn't want your money, doesn't want any good things or expensive thing. I only want your care, your praise. It's that really hard for you to do that?

You look down on me that I can't survive in overseas, but I will prove that !! You're totally wrong! I can survive without you! I can survive by my own.

I feel so disappointed that, even my last breakfast in malaysia you don't even accompany eat.. you just left me alone for boarding with sucks reason! I mad! I hate! why I will be treated in this way? What I do wrong? I do whenever you want!!!!