29/4/2014
In the day, my mood was glum, I wonder why my mind keep pop out the pictures that when we went for Redang trip. In the beach, I remember how we argue, how we stay sweet, how we fight, what you said before. I admit that, during that time, I do really act like childish. I regret before why I'm just can't be mature. I miss the moment you dearly love on me. I don't know why you hurt me so deep and I still can remember what you said to be before. The promise, the beg, the words, the sound, the expression.....
Who knows i'm still suffering for this? Who knows I'm struggling to erase all the memories.. I tried... But the memories keep recalled... and I suffered :'(
A tough person like you, because of me you tried to be soft, roman, reaching my demand... I'm happy that I'm your first girlfriend which you bought valentine's gift for. The bracelet (with star shape) I'm surprised that why could you know that I love this kind of bracelet... You answered me that I don't know, I just saw this was nice and suit you.. ( From that moment I know that our heart are link)... I thought, the always I thought, you're my last boy friend.. but....( the end never be)
We kind of people that from two different world, our personality, temper, habits are quite similar... but... we have different thinking, and the most important thing is over education level are totally big distance.. because of this, you can't accept and we can't communicate well... everyday arguing... and I'm tired...
The bracelet you gifted me, I'm wearing on it in always, before that it never drop off. Since yesterday, it dropped off and I doesn't realize, when I'm realized, I'm happy because it proved that our fate is ended up.. But when I taking out my groceries, I found back , it return to me...( feel annoy)
Ending up, I went to beach with my friends, I was thinking just drop it off into the deep sea, and it will never come back... always considering.. considering...
At last, my friend help me out, she help me throw off the bracelet into the deep sea.. and it will never ever come back to me... In future, whether our fate is it still there, I understand that.. something passed and it will never be back together...because time make everyone changed... ^^
